Okay so it has been too long since I blogged. I know all of my fans are very sad! I'm super tired and busy with my job and my non existent social life.
Lets be honest. I was half assing the eating for a long time in this program. I was eating well but eating more than I should have. I didn't realize what I needed to do or I just hadn't had the motivation. Something clicked about 2 weeks ago. I realized that I was spending all the money to get healthy but was just doing nothing good for my body when I wasn't working out. I also looked at some pictures from college and realized how good I looked. Yes I know that I have changed a lot since February but I don't want to just do okay I want to be amazing.
So a bunch of the OBC (operation bootcamp) people were starting the paleo challenge and I jumped on board (about a week late because I missed it the first announcement). I got on board and have cut out carbs and sugars from my diet. Yes I know that some carbs are great but I get some from natural food. I am doing it for 30 days and am going to reevaluate how I feel at the end. So far I like it. Of course I'm having weird dreams about fruit, bread, and cheese. The cravings get to you a lot but I'm thinking about my goals instead. Josh (our fearless paleo leader) has been telling us to make a really good visualization for ourselves. We have a chat group so it has also been helpful. Well I'm gonna share it with you:
I will be wearing my size 12 jeans and they aren't skin tight but comfortable. I am waving to someone and my arms are not waving with me (meaning I have no more wiggle in the underarm area). I will be in the middle of the pack at OBC. I will be able to wear one of those curve hugging dresses that are tight all the way down. I will be able to run a 5K and 10K.
I don't know if I will ever be a able to do a half marathon or if I really want to. I guess I will reevaluate when I get to a good pace/endurance level.
Just so you know, I actually haven't been in the back the last couple of days at bootcamp. During the warm up I am able to stay out front. Today I actually wasn't in the back at all! I'm so proud of myself. I have gotten my mind right! I don't know what clicked but I like it.
I have lost more than 10% of my body weight so far and will just keep going. To be specific I'm down 40 lbs. I have 70-90 more pounds to go and I have lost 12 lbs since Wednesday when I started Paleo.
Other than that, I thought I found the perfect guy. Well as soon as we had a disagreement he decided that I wasn't worth talking to anymore. I get discouraged with the fact that I just can't seem to find a guy that can handle me, but right now my journey is more important than that, plus I will have to beat the men off with a stick when I get to my goals! I am sad because he seemed great, but I'm a force to be reckoned with. I have faith in God that he has my life planned for me.
Back to OBC for a minute:
I couldn't have done any of this without my bootcamp friends. I wouldn't have stayed without them encouraging me and showing/telling me that I was physically changing because as we all know we are more critical of ourselves. I especially have to thank Dori and Audrey for always being the person who stays with the TLC (the last camper). I don't know if that is what they get assigned or just what they volunteer for. Without them I would have probably turned around the first week and never looked back. I am so grateful that I have the OBC people in my life because on my own I wouldn't get up and work myself as hard as I do for them. I love that they are there to encourage and push me!
People have been saying that I am an inspiration. I still don't understand that because I am inspired by the people around me who kill the running part of things and look like models to me (my friends; i won't name people). Anyways thats all right now. I will try to be better, but ya know I'm crazy and busy!
