Stand still

It's been far too long since I felt my life was moving forward. It's like my life got stopped and I don't know how to take that next step forward. My brain seems stuck and I can't make it think the things I want it to. It won't listen to me. 

I have lots of confessions to make:

I've gained some of the weight back

I am eating like shit

I have zero motivation

I wish I could afford to go back to talk to my counselor. Maybe when I get paid. Maybe someone that reads this can help me figure out how to get the drive, fire and motivation back.....