Anxiety is worthless!

So here goes guys.  I don't know how much I'll be able to type since I have to get going to work, but I know that I need to post something.  I was so anxious this morning and it made me run slower I think. I started the run this morning almost in tears because I was fighting myself because I didn't know if I could make or break my time.  Everyone was asking me about my time and I know that everyone just wanted to get me ready for the mile but it hit me wrong today.  Some days I regret starting this blog because it means that so many people are also invested in my success which can set you up for failure.  I think, what if I don't make my goals and disappoint everyone.  I spoke to some very special people who are encouragers for me and all of them said that my success is encouraging to others but if I don't make my goals I am not a disappointment.  Thanks guys for saying that!

I have to realize that my BIGGEST critic is the voice in the back of my head that still doesn't believe that I can do it.  I need to find a way to punch her in the face and cut her off on PT days.  I freaked out and made my breathing horrible for nothing because if I had just taken a deep breath and said screw it I would have done better.  Even though the anxiety I took 7 seconds off my mile 13:04!!!  (I thought it was more, but hey i'll take it).  I also beat my sit ups, dips, and did about the same in push ups.

So you guys know the picture of the giant dress??  My seamstress had to cut 12 inches off of it and is cutting 2 more out as we speak.  So 14 inches off the dress.  Can you believe that??  I put it on and it actually fit well (a little loose still, but it would stay up).

So here are the totals for inches lost so far:
Hips: 6 inches
Chest: 9 inches
Waist: 6.25 inches
Thigh (started measuring 2 months ago): 3.5 inches
Weight: 46 lbs.  I think I said it was 53 lbs, but it was actually 43 when I posted it and somehow did my math wrong.  I never thought that I would see 250 again and I will be lower than that in a couple of weeks.

I love you guys and I am so happy to be doing this and can't wait to do more!!!

Here is something to think about....Here is a picture that was from October 2011:

I look so much different now!  Its not until I see photos that I realize.