Tragedy, and a little perspective.

Today was the Boston marathon, something that is a huge event where thousands compete and thousands more spectate. As you probably know there was a bombing today at the finish line. I heard this today and broke down. It takes a special kind if dedication to train, sign up, and complete a marathon. It makes me physically ill when I think that these people were harmed and someone would place a bomb at an event like this. Yes I know it has happened before and may happen again, but it's hard for me to wrap my head around the evil in the world.

If you have ever read my blog you know my journey, and today I had a sobering moment where my "tragedy" was put I to perspective. I am a very blessed person who has never had to be through one of these tragedies and I pray for everyone that has been touched by this!!

Through the last few weeks I have also gotten some perspective from diving into the Bible. God has shown me that my focus has been so selfish and petty. I have been working on that and sincerely apologize to anyone that I have hurt through my selfishness. I have realized that my hurts I have been going through are all in a huge effort to get me to become a real Christian. I'm sure some of my non religious friends just cringed at that label bc they think of the fake Christians that judge and act like they are perfect. Well I can say that I was a fake Christian for a long time bc I could tell you all the answers but it never felt real to me. Today it feels real and I'm actually studying it and care about what God says. Don't worry I'm not going to become preachy or judgmental bc that still annoys me. I'm me but my focus has changed towards something that isn't me based.

I'm still going to be a neurotic, caffeine wired, sarcastic theater nerd! I just will try to think about others more and make sure that I try to say things out of love vs. sarcasm!! I'm still a huge work in progress and will have to take it one day at a time!!

Update on fitness: I'm still on my plateau but I'm letting that worry go bc stress won't help my weight loss!! I have to thank everyone that has been so supportive during my journey! I have realized that through this whole year I have not only been losing weight but also learning how to approach the world in a whole new way. I am transforming everything! Not only getting healthy physically but also spiritually, mentally, and emotionally!!

Tragedy, and a little perspective.

Today was the Boston marathon, something that is a huge event where thousands compete and thousands more spectate. As you probably know there was a bombing today at the finish line. I heard this today and broke down. It takes a special kind if dedication to train, sign up, and complete a marathon. It makes me physically ill when I think that these people were harmed and someone would place a bomb at an event like this. Yes I know it has happened before and may happen again, but it's hard for me to wrap my head around the evil in the world.

If you have ever read my blog you know my journey, and today I had a sobering moment where my "tragedy" was put I to perspective. I am a very blessed person who has never had to be through one of these tragedies and I pray for everyone that has been touched by this!!

Through the last few weeks I have also gotten some perspective from diving into the Bible. God has shown me that my focus has been so selfish and petty. I have been working on that and sincerely apologize to anyone that I have hurt through my selfishness. I have realized that my hurts I have been going through are all in a huge effort to get me to become a real Christian. I'm sure some of my non religious friends just cringed at that label bc they think of the fake Christians that judge and act like they are perfect. Well I can say that I was a fake Christian for a long time bc I could tell you all the answers but it never felt real to me. Today it feels real and I'm actually studying it and care about what God says. Don't worry I'm not going to become preachy or judgmental bc that still annoys me. I'm me but my focus has changed towards something that isn't me based.

I'm still going to be a neurotic, caffeine wired, sarcastic theater nerd! I just will try to think about others more and make sure that I try to say things out of love vs. sarcasm!! I'm still a huge work in progress and will have to take it one day at a time!!

Update on fitness: I'm still on my plateau but I'm letting that worry go bc stress won't help my weight loss!! I have to thank everyone that has been so supportive during my journey! I have realized that through this whole year I have not only been losing weight but also learning how to approach the world in a whole new way. I am transforming everything! Not only getting healthy physically but also spiritually, mentally, and emotionally!!