So I've been gone a long time from this blog. I will update you in a few but first the major issue.
Anger: As I get older, I feel like I get angrier. I am angry at people, the state of the world, and whole groups of people. I am angry that people can be so narrow minded. I am angry at myself for being angry. It actually scares me that I can't let the anger go. I can't seem to find peace in anything and that is so very frustrating for me since I have been such a happy and easy going person for so long. What is wrong with me, what have I been doing that is so toxic to my soul? Why can't I accept that I will have a differing opinion or that people will be stupid/ignorant/bigotted/etc in the world?
I NEED an attitude change. Where do I start? Is it all stemming from my depression?
Things I need to do:
-Be more active
-Spend more time in quiet reflection/prayer/reading
-Spend less time being judgmental
-Forgive people I HAVE to interact with for being close minded
-Remember that I am strong enough to cope with anything I do
-Remember that God doesn't give you more than you can handle
-Friends here aren't necessarily true friends
-True friends are worth holding onto and loving
I am going to take some time tomorrow to get away from the world and contemplate life.
Update:
-In grad school in St. Augustine, FL
-In love with a wonderful man named Scott whom I have been dating for a year 8/7
-Best friends: Carolyn (we never talk sadly), Ashley, Heather, Katie
-Mom and Dad bought a farm in VA
