PT test December!

So its been a long year.  There have been so many changes in my life!  I'm sure that if you have read my blog you know most of them.  Its been a whirlwind and there have been ups and downs.  I got to play Santa last night which was a joy because these kids were so excited about getting gifts from me.  I couldn't help but realize that my job really does help these kids.  I sometimes don't realize it especially when the kids are bored of talking to you all the time.  One of my kids get to go home from the group home he was in because he met all of his goals!!

We have Christmas tomorrow and I have been waiting on my presents to be delivered.  Of course I didn't order them until Tuesday, oops!!  I think I did pretty well on the gifts, but I have to finish one!  Ben has been super helpful giving me ideas because my mind was blank.  Pretty much he is great and he gets to go with us to Virginia on Saturday!!  I'm excited for him to meet my crazy family and super nervous, but hey he already knows i'm crazy so he will figure out where I got it!

So we have been having 3 day a week camps for 2 months now.  Its super hard for me to do 3 days a week for some reason, you would think that it is easier but I think the routine of having to go to bed at the right time is better.  When it is a 3 day camp I will stay up too late on some days and then forget to go to bed early other days.  Either way its been a great holiday season!

We did a PT test today!  It was not my best time but it was also freezing outside (literally) and super windy.  I did finally beat the 30, because I hadn't been able to get to 30 sit ups in the past months.  This month I got to 32 (in a minute)!!!!!  I have been having trouble with my shoulders so the dips and such haven't been that good.  I haven't gained or lost any weight, but one of my lovely co-bootcampers said that I looked skinnier, so I'll take that.

Also for anyone that is interested, we start another 6 week/3 day a week camp!!!  You guys should come and join me in the mornings.  I will be working out with people 5 days a week because I need to keep getting up, but the 3 day is a good way to get used to getting up so early!!!  Ask me how to join if you want to!

Many Blessings

There are many things that I worry about constantly, thats what you do when you have anxiety.  You worry yourself to death over the little things.  Lately I have been worrying about how I am going to pay the bills and get Christmas presents for my family.  I know that many people have it worse than me but I still worry.  I worry like probably 90% of people do.  We are told in Matthew 6:24 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.".  I don't listen usually listen to this verse very well, but I've been learning to with the help of some people in my life.  I'm learning to take it one day at a time and ask for help if I need it.  

I have to be happy because the most important things in life I have.  I have my family who puts up with more from me than they should and friends who are amazing to me.  I was told by my mom the other day that she prays for my happiness everyday.  I have forgotten how to pray for the good things lately.  I usually just pray for my wants and needs and forget to praise him for what he has done in my life.  Tonight How I met your mother (oddly enough) reminded me that my life rocks.  I have finally gotten what I have been praying for, for years.  I prayed that I would have people love me for me and not judge me.  I have finally surrounded myself with people that truly care about me.  I'm talking about everyone that I truly call friends.  Its kind of fitting that I have this feeling to write about this right before Christmas but hey lets be corny for once.  

I don't really want to talk about the workout thing because its been a rough month.  I haven't been eating well but i'll get back on it and I won't be conquered by my addiction to food.  

I want to think everyone again who has supported me on my journey and also to those people in my life that can get me to calm down when I have a panic attack (even when we both don't know whats happening).   

And a big shout out to my mom and dad who have their 30th wedding anniversary on Wednesday the day after Christmas!!!  I hope that I can be as happy and in love as you guys one day!