Loss

I lost 6 lbs this month.....not as good as I wanted to do but at this rate I will be at my 100 lb goal by May 2013!!! That is all right now!

Oh and I just measured myself!!!! I lost 1.75 off my bust, .5 on my waist, and 3.25 off my hips!!!

Generosity and Encouragement

As I write this blog I am tearing up and it is really hard to see. If you are close to me, you know that I have been struggling financially lately. I started a new job and it didn't turn out to be as lucrative as I thought it would be. I'm staying with the job because it does allow me to do things like bootcamp and theater and it is so much less stress than what I was doing.

Well today, David announced at the end of the pt test and during our monthly circle/share time that someone left a note in his mailbox with the money to pay for my bootcamp next month because I'm such an inspiration. I have no clue who would do that for me, but I automatically want to find out and hug them, bake them a cake, and who knows what else.

I had no idea that when I started bootcamp that it would affect anyone but me. I had no idea that anyone would care one way or another. When I first started I was getting offended by the "i'm so proud of you" statement because I thought it was people being condescending, but I have now realized that people really care how I'm doing and are genuinely proud that I'm doing well.

Anyways, Generosity is a crazy thing because I don't know if I would give up my money for someone else to benefit and I am so thankful for that because I don't know how much longer I can do bootcamp but I know that I will be able to do April and probably May since I already have half off because of all my faithful friends.

Also, Encouragement....I have no real words for what all of the instructors and other bootcampers have done to my mental/emotional health each time I get a sweet/encouraging word sent my way. Everyday I have a new or different instructor running with me, and a lot of times I want to quit and if I didn't have someone running beside me I probably would. Different instructors approach me different ways and each help me. Dori likes to push me and will get sassy right back when I start talking back. Audrey is sweet and continues to give me goals to reach. Josh and Leo tell me I can do it and continue to make me push myself harder. Scott doesn't take no or can't as an answer and makes me want to puke when I partner with him (which is a good thing because that means I'm kicking my own ass). Ben tells me silly things that make me laugh and make me forget about the fact that I'm working out. John tells me to breath which I completely forget how to do when running and Ernie gives me helpful tips like stomach breathing (breathing like a singer) which made me think of breathing in a whole new way. I know that there are a million other instructors that have helped me out and each one gives me that little push that helps me get through the work out! Today I felt bad because I couldn't tell each of them how much it helps me but it does!!

Btw....I'm in a large Tshirt (was XXL) and an XL work out pants (was XXL)!!! Also I wore out a pair of shoes this month and have to buy some this weekend before next weeks workouts!!!

Just Do It

So I've been slacking on this writing thing, but I've been more busy with other things in life. My job is finally picking up and I'm doing better at keeping up on everything I have to do for that.

Today was the PT test for the end of March. Here were my goals for the month:
-Take a minute off my mile
-get better at breathing
-do better overall on eating

I've had a tough month eating/drinking wise and I will have to do better next month!! I had the wedding and St. Patricks day, and if you really know me, you know I like to fake my heritage whenever there is drinking involved....I mean I start speaking spanish when it gets to close to May 5 (horrible I know). I have learned my lesson that all night drinkathons are not going to get me to my goals.

What does get you to your goals is motivation and a very positive attitude. Leo (one of the instructors) has been preaching this to me for 2 months!!! Well today it paid off!! My goal was to have a 15 minute mile since last month was 16:05.

Guess what???? As I crossed the finish line today I heard Josh say that my time was 14:19.....I almost cried, passed out, and puked of shock. I had no idea that I could even get to 15 minutes and now I do it and shave off 1:46 off my previous time. Goes to show you that if you believe in yourself you will do better.

I lost my book from last month so I have no idea what my exact numbers were for the sit ups, push ups or dips were, but I know I did more push ups and dips. I actually didn't do as many sit ups, but that could be due to the fact that I was still breathing hard from the run.

I have to figure out my measurements too....probably just call the bridal shop again, since they had the initial ones and I have the amounts that I took off of my body. I'll post them as soon as I have them. I'm also making a chart that I am saving on my computer!!

Support!!

A Friend Is Like A Good Bra...
Hard to Find
Supportive
Comfortable
Always Lifts You Up
Never Lets You Down or Leaves You Hanging
And Is Always Close To Your Heart

I've been very appreciative towards my friends but not as much as this week!!! I told my friends the deal about friend day, and somehow I got 5 people at the friend day. My friends rock my world. Some of my friends have ignored my transformation which is very sad and discouraging. My awesome friends have commented and actually encourage me to become fit. My parents are also being very encouraging.

I'm having a problem right now because I am so tired from OBC, work, and theater. I have been contemplating skipping and this morning I cut off my alarm but my conscience got the better of me. So I kicked the butt of the workout!!!

Drinking and Partying

I think I'm getting old because it gets worse and worse each time I decide to party like a rock star. The other night (St. Pattys) I decided to party as any person should and pretend that you are Irish for a day. Of course when I walked into the bar I see my ex. I had plans for the following weekend to see him so I was thrown up that he was there at the bar. It upset me that I wasn't looking even sexier than I am now. Of course I really wanted him to grovel at my feet. It brought me down especially since I didn't even get to flirt blatantly in front of him. So with my body weight in alcohol in my body, I lost all inhibitions and ate fettuccine alfredo that night, bah!!! I love how I killed my diet by drunkenly eating. Why is it that all will power leaves you when you drink?? I should be able to stop myself from eating crap!

I think moral of that story is to spend more time sober and less time worrying about what these boys think. I've spent my whole adult life chasing after these boys that don't care anything for me!!

So my goals will come first before anyone that doesn't matter.

Oops I did it again!!

So I of course have been busy like a chicken with my head cut off!! I got through the first 3 days of bootcamp without any problem, but then I had to miss Friday for Tippy's wedding which was beautiful, but I drank instead of working out. I completely regretted it when I got back from Tennessee. I felt like a slug (many bootcampers told me this, but of course I don't listen to the wiser people around me). I got back on track Monday, and I about died in the workout (which at this point I can't even remember).

I have been planning more but its still hard to get more than 4 meals in a day. I have been doing well in bootcamp. Today we did 20-20-20 which was great. For those of you that don't know it consists of 15 sprints (10 seconds long) and 20 seconds to get back. You then do 20 strength exercises and then 20 seconds of plank. The workout is pretty much created by the devil himself! I've become a masochist with this working out thing.

I actually surprised myself today. At the end of the workout we did a 20 second sprint and they told us to give it our all. I started out not going so fast because i'm scared that I might hurt myself, fall down, die from no breath, etc (all excuses), and then I just let go and started running. I was able to keep up with people and I was going pretty fast. It felt good. God I'm a junkie!!

Anyways, I looked great at the wedding nice and thinner. I felt better when we were dancing! I love the fact that I have more energy but still miss all the sleep i used to have. I'm gonna try to be better about blogging from now on!! Happy St. Patty's Day!!!

Starting with a bang!!

I started with a bang quite literally this morning. I was walking through the house trying to be stealth and not wake up the house going to bootcamp and I stubbed my toe. Have you ever done that? It makes you want to instantly scream curse words and puke at the same time. I swear I broke my toe. The whole time I was driving I told myself to suck it up because it didn't matter how much it hurt I was doing bootcamp and the devil would have to take me out with something bigger than a poor little toe.

Today is the first day of my second month of bootcamp and my goals for the month are:
-lose more weight (i'm thinking 7 more pounds is reasonable)
-have a more positive "I can" attitude
-work on eating more/better meals (at least 5 per day)
-doing my homework when I have to miss (since I know I will be out of town at least 1 day)
-encourage others esp the newbies.
-take 1 more minute off my mile (at least)

Josh said today that we are outlawing the pity sounds. The grunts that you make when you want to die or want to stop an activity. We have to remember that bootcamp isn't something that is happening to us but something that we are doing to better ourselves. This morning was a day for grunts too!!! We did a moving workout where we started at the all childrens' playground, moved to the sidewalk, then to the picnic tables by the preschool, then sprints across the bridge!!! Those sprints were killer, but I noticed that I could push myself farther and better each time. I wanted to whine and bitch but I didn't and I just went through it. I was definitely out of my comfort zone because I have irrational fear that I won't be able to catch my breath again! What is with that? Did I almost die from not being able to breath one time? I don't remember anything like that. Great thing is that I get my breath back faster and faster each time I do the workouts so I need to just suck it up and go!! ;)

16 Minutes of Hell

16 minutes of Hell....well at least that was what my body was thinking during the mile on Friday. We did our second PT test on Friday to beat our times. During the mile I felt like my body was fighting against me and wanted everything to shut down and make me quit. My breath was gone, my legs hurt, and my body just acted like it didn't want to move. You know what? I didn't quit, and I told my body "bitch, we will do this mile and you will thank me when you don't have so much weight to lug around".

You know what else?? I beat my original mile time by 2 minutes, thats right I got it down to 16:05!!! I also did more push ups, sit ups and dips. Actually doubled my dips, did 10 more sit ups, and i don't know how many more push ups. Want to know my measurements??? I lost 4 inches in my chest, 2 inches in my waist, and 0.5 inches in my hips. I also lost 7 pounds. So hey, I only have 93 more to go (maybe more depending on how I feel at that point).

I was also named Bootcamper of the month because I showed up everyday and they say I had a good attitude. I guess I beat myself up about my attitude a lot. Others tell me that it is all mental (the running/working out) and I'm learning that is very true because if you are in a splendid mood you can do better than if you are in a depressed mood.

I know that I have a long way to go but I am going to change my attitude and make better food choices this month. I'm gonna work towards eating 5-6 times per day and drink more water (less soda). Well wish me luck!!!