PT test month 7!!!!!!!

Finished my mile this morning and was so happy because I bypassed my goal or 13:30.  I got a personal record of 13:11!!!  I am 15 lbs down which I said before.  I don't know if I expand much more on my goals, because I have all of mine spelled out.  

I did more dips and pushups than ever before and no alternative ones.  I did the same amount of sit ups, but Audrey said that I was doing them in better form than some people.  

I have some mental goals:

-Stop blaming the past and look towards the future

-Surround myself by only people who are truly supportive

-work towards the GRE test no matter how much it scares the piss out of me

-Push the positive thinking

-Get back with God: I pray often but need to go back to church.  I think i might get the book that Leslie recommended.  

I don't know if there are anymore, but I will think about them.  I gotta get ready for work.  

Accomplishing things!

So today was soccer day at Bootcamp.  It was fun even though I've never really played.  We had to do a lot of victory laps because we were rocking it!!  So anyways we were on the way back to the fountain and I had to do my first ever front to back!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm so freaking excited because that has been one of my goals from day one!  Now tomorrow I have a PT test and my goal is to get 13:30.  People talk about the PT test and I want to puke when they talk about it!!

Got stood up this week by a guy. I had a friend who decided to make me feel like shit.  They must have been harboring some feelings of anger and frustration with me before and this was just a catalyst for them to tell me everything they have thought for obviously years.  I'm an amazing person (no matter what my weight) and thats all I need to know.  People that want to bring me down but they can't because I will be successful.

Also with this Paleo thing, which I just started my 3rd week.  I have lost around 15 lbs since I started.  Its exciting and I feel better.  I'm still tired but I'll get better!   Anyways, this one is short because I'm a super busy girl that has to work all the time.

Goals

So I wrote my visualization earlier, but now I am going to write my goals, they are more concrete and go in sessions/increments.  I have to write these out because they just flit through my mind and I forget them sometimes:

Short Term:
-be comfortable in that dress I have to wear on Sept 7th for the wedding (its a size 18 and is a little snug on the hips): it fits but I would like some room
-not be the last person at OBC.  I will continue to push harder and be faster
-get in the smaller 18 pants (yes they are retarded and not all the same size; other women will understand this): I have never worn some of these because I thought at one time that I would lose weight but now I will be in them
-strengthen my core and learn how to get my butt down during those planks.  I have no idea when my butt is sticking in the air.  It is just like an alien part of my body because I have no idea how far it goes out or when i've got my body in a line
-I will continue this paleo thing and not cheat

Mid Term:
-I want to be in a size 16 by the time Christmas rolls around.  I want to be able to ask for smaller sized clothes for Christmas or go shopping with mom for Christmas and get some smaller stuff.
-I want to make it through the holidays and only cheat a little on this paleo thing.  I think that I could do pretty well and just stuff myself on the meats.
-I will run a 5K with my little sister!  We will be able to stay together (or at least I will keep her in my sights)

Long Term:
-I want to be in a size 12.  Audrey thinks that I will get smaller than that, but I don't know if my hips will shrink past that but hey right now 12 is a great goal.  If I get smaller I will get smaller I won't complain.  So by February I want to be in a 14 and by May/June I will be in a 12
-I will be able to complete a 5K and 10K.  I don't know if I want to do a half marathon but we will see
-I will be saving money for my own house as soon as I'm done paying off my car.

There are many more, but I can't think of them!  Feedback helps me blog more so please do!

Paleo Challenge

Okay so it has been too long since I blogged.  I know all of my fans are very sad!  I'm super tired and busy with my job and my non existent social life.

Lets be honest.  I was half assing the eating for a long time in this program.  I was eating well but eating more than I should have.  I didn't realize what I needed to do or I just hadn't had the motivation.  Something clicked about 2 weeks ago.  I realized that I was spending all the money to get healthy but was just doing nothing good for my body when I wasn't working out.  I also looked at some pictures from college and realized how good I looked.  Yes I know that I have changed a lot since February but I don't want to just do  okay I want to be amazing.

So a bunch of the OBC (operation bootcamp) people were starting the paleo challenge and I jumped on board (about a week late because I missed it the first announcement).  I got on board and have cut out carbs and sugars from my diet.  Yes I know that some carbs are great but I get some from natural food.  I am doing it for 30 days and am going to reevaluate how I feel at the end.  So far I like it.  Of course I'm having weird dreams about fruit, bread, and cheese.  The cravings get to you a lot but I'm thinking about my goals instead.  Josh (our fearless paleo leader) has been telling us to make a really good visualization for ourselves. We have a chat group so it has also been helpful.  Well I'm gonna share it with you:

I will be wearing my size 12 jeans and they aren't skin tight but comfortable.  I am waving to someone and my arms are not waving with me (meaning I have no more wiggle in the underarm area).  I will be in the middle of the pack at OBC.  I will be able to wear one of those curve hugging dresses that are tight all the way down.  I will be able to run a 5K and 10K.

I don't know if I will ever be a able to do a half marathon or if I really want to.  I guess I will reevaluate when I get to a good pace/endurance level.

Just so you know, I actually haven't been in the back the last couple of days at bootcamp.  During the warm up I am able to stay out front.  Today I actually wasn't in the back at all!  I'm so proud of myself.  I have gotten my mind right!  I don't know what clicked but I like it.

I have lost more than 10% of my body weight so far and will just keep going.  To be specific I'm down 40 lbs.  I have 70-90 more pounds to go and I have lost 12 lbs since Wednesday when I started Paleo.

Other than that, I thought I found the perfect guy.  Well as soon as we had a disagreement he decided that I wasn't worth talking to anymore.   I get discouraged with the fact that I just can't seem to find a guy that can handle me, but right now my journey is more important than that, plus I will have to beat the men off with a stick when I get to my goals!  I am sad because he seemed great, but I'm a force to be reckoned with.  I have faith in God that he has my life planned for me.

Back to OBC for a minute:
I couldn't have done any of this without my bootcamp friends.  I wouldn't have stayed without them encouraging me and showing/telling me that I was physically changing because as we all know we are more critical of ourselves.  I especially have to thank Dori and Audrey for always being the person who stays with the TLC (the last camper).  I don't know if that is what they get assigned or just what they volunteer for.  Without them I would have probably turned around the first week and never looked back.  I am so grateful that I have the OBC people in my life because on my own I wouldn't get up and work myself as hard as I do for them.  I love that they are there to encourage and push me!

People have been saying that I am an inspiration.  I still don't understand that because I am inspired by the people around me who kill the running part of things and look like models to me (my friends; i won't name people).  Anyways thats all right now.  I will try to be better, but ya know I'm crazy and busy!

Changes

Ok. So the two pictures I think I am uploading (depending on this new app) are kind of tracking my progress. The one where im with my grandma (aint she cute) is from Dec 2011, and the full length was from about a week ago.

As you can tell its pretty drastoc changes and this month there will,be more. I want to run faster, jump higher and complain less in the times to come.

Well I would type more but I have to go to work. Thankfulness I need to work on too