Positivity

I had a very tough morning today. Most of it has to do with the fact that I'm exhausted from working out twice a day this month. I have been struggling with the number on the scale a lot and it seems like its staying stagnant right above 250. Yes I'm losing inches and poundage but that number is haunting my sleep.

This morning I was super sore from my workouts yesterday and got down on myself. I, of course, broke down and decided to have a pity party but luckily was given a positive talking to from two amazing men (Leo/Ernie). They made me stop saying "not" and start thinking about what I have done. I have these negative thoughts (like everyone does sometimes) but have to combat them with positivity. I think my negative self talk is my greatest enemy.

So I'm working on getting off that train and taking never, not, can't, etc out of my vocabulary. You know why? Bc I can do it. I've proven that I can with every time I get up in the morning and every time I make the better choice eating. I do it with the picture below and the fact that I have lost 50 lbs in a year, and who knows how much I've changed my bmi! I never had it measured before but I'm sure I was off the charts. I haven't gotten where I want to be but I will get there. I will be stronger and have made the good habits that won't take me back to where I was. I have noticed that through this journey that I praise/encourage everyone else but forget to give myself that same praise. As Josh told me today "how long did it take to get unhealthy?" I answered about 10 years and he said "then give yourself a break bc 10 years won't be fixed in a year and look at how far you have gone".

The picture below is about a year apart!